everyone's a closet designer

well, I think I have finally come to terms with my dirty little secret. I REALLY want to be able to do 'design'... sadly, I am not very good ;o(
but then again, most people aren't.

Serioulsy, anyone who has ever worked in a team environment and had to suffer thru meeting where EVERYONE wants to tell the designer what to do, can understand this. I did a lot of soul searching and meditating until at long last I was able to let go of the urge to control the design on projects I was working on. However, as a freelancer and specifically as a flash developer, there are times when a sense of design would really help me out. Emerson says that we can all see beauty, validating armchair designers everywhere. And to some degree it is a TALENT, but it is also a SKILL and that is what I would like to develop. The Skill.

So now it is out, I am attempting to 'design' my own website's homepage.
Stay tuned...